Day 146: Past Experience

I used to be scared of the dark and scared of being alone, in charge. Even in my adulthood I couldn't shake it. I started to think, though, of God's charge to "Fear Not." And I wondered, as Enos, "how is it done?" How can I not fear when people do break into houses, rape women, kill people, kidnap children? How can I not fear that? It was a really powerful experience for me as I was able to think through it -- all the way through it. What then? And after that, what then? And when I came to death, I asked myself "And what then?" And it was there that I found my answer. Then I would be with God. Then, if my faith holds true in Him, everything will be made right. "Fear not what man can do . . ." for that is not true tragedy! God can fix all those things. He really can. God can soothe my children, too. I can trust HIm because I know He loves them and He will heal them, too. It is not tragedy. What peace I found! The peace is God's to give, but I had to seek it out. It is a gift I partly gave to myself by taking time to figure out how to follow a commandment of God with which I was struggling. It is one of the great, quiet miracles of my life, that rocked my life and calmed by storm-tossed sea and no one even knew! Funny that.