Day 131: Experience

While I folded clothes the other night, I turned on a movie. It started to bother me, though, and continued to bother me. I finally turned it off and noticed the gross feeling I had in my chest. It always takes me a little while to shake off those gross feelings. While I waited for the ill feelings to "wear off," I had to do some more things to care for my children. I noticed right away that my patience was gone and I was reacting suddenly and with anger to the tiny annoyances that are a part of life with children. What had happened? It wasn't so much that I had to wait for the ill feelings to wear off, it was that the spirit had left and I had to wait for Him to come back.

It is so interesting. It's like being in the sun and not realizing it until a cloud passes over your light. Except that this was more like sudden middle of winter. I take the peace of the spirit that I live in for granted! I think I am alone when all along I am being helped and supported and calmed every moment by Him who I wish to serve. He is REAL. I know because I noticed when He was gone.