Day 10: Remembering

There was a time not too long ago when I was feeling sad about my children growing up. I feel like my family is complete and at the same time I felt that it would be complete for a very little while since Savannah is growing up very fast! I could tell that THIS was the time that would be the very best time of my life. But why so short?

I don't know if I prayed about my distress or if my Father in Heaven sent the comfort just because He knows me and He loves me. But as the week wore on, I thought about progression. I thought to wonder, what would it be like if no one got any older? Not such a good thought. What would it be like if the lessons I try to teach my little ones never did take effect. Wouldn't I stop trying to teach? Wouldn't they stop trying to learn? It would be boring. Worse than boring. I realized that part of the reason I enjoy my children so much is because I know it won't last forever.

At the same time, seemingly out of the clear blue sky, came the realization that just because Savannah grows up, does not mean that I will lose her. I will still "have" her. I will still enjoy her and share in her joys and sorrows and celebrate her victories. Our family is forever -- and I will be their mom forever.

These thoughts and realizations were a huge comfort to me and allowed my mind to rest on a subject that had been troubling it for awhile. But more than anything else, the experience taught me once again, that I have a Father in Heaven who cares for me and helps me. He will be my Dad forever.